The Bipolar Experience. I have lived my life with this illness. Even before I knew it was there it lurked within my brain. My journey has never been a walk in the park—not by any means—but God created me and my mind. Since He has NEVER made even the first mistake, this is fine by me!
I’ve described some of my symptoms: acute depression, my brain can’t focus (so annoying), acute obsessive compulsive disorders, paranoia, fear of any sickness, agitation, impulsive anger … With a list like that, I’m just thankful they don’t all hit at one time! Yet they are each always present in my mind … we travel together.
Many times, even recently, I’ve told Dr. Barrier that my quality of life makes it not worth living. Often, I’m just ready to go to sleep, get real peace, never hurt again. I’ve been hospitalized on suicide watch more than once.
But now, God is working through my blog! And as much therapy as it provides me, my true wish is that it will help others …
A friend called me Monday morning. We were both models with the prestigious Ford Models. She, too, is bipolar. She shared her story with me; it broke my heart. What saddened me the most was the complete isolation she feels. The scrutiny, being treated differently by “friends” … all feelings I know too well.
With all my symptoms, the very LAST thing I or any other person afflicted with mental illness needs is shame. The negative stigma we face is unwarranted.
My first paragraph began with God … His perfection … His creation …
Let us give thanks for all the blessings we have. Let us embrace those who endure various illnesses. Let us toss any negative stigmas right where they belong: in the circular file … the garbage can! J
Are you down with that?
Until next time …